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Tue, 28 Sep 2004 18:54:41 GMT

new journal bitches! add meeeeeee :D

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xoxo

and if my lungs still let me breathe, would you be there for me?

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 19:25:07 GMT

last night was the senses fail and silverstein show. gooood times. silverstein was awesome, as always! senses fail was alright, not the best. not like last summer at the drive thru tour. they were AMAZING then! but they were niice :) bert from the used was there. haha the people there were..woww. haha kept me entertained. so jenn and i noticed this cute boy. he was so tiny! veryyy cute. well a little later we were up looking at merch and i feel someone tap me on my arm, i turn around and it was him! he asked me if my tattoos hurt. he was nice :) and by the end of the show he kept moving up and he was eventually on my left, but over a bit. and kept getting closer haha it was funny. so after the show we went out back to get pics. i wanted to kill those people back there. they were so effing annoying and rude. i felt bad for the bands for having to deal w/them. but we decided that jenn and billy [silverstein] are meant to be and shane [silverstein] and i are meant to be yea. i mean we were both wearing fob and the whole xo thing haha. yeaaaaa. he's so effing adorable tho. and so is billy :) im hungry. i think im going to order some pizza. papa john's. mmmmm!

xoxo

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 18:13:44 GMT

i colored my hair yesterday. :/ it's alright i guess. i miss my black and pink hair so so much!! :( went to olive garden last night w/my mom and brother. mMmMm it was soo good. i love that place. however, they were freakin out of my tiramisu!! so that def. sucked. at dinner my brother was talking about some temp job at my dad's work. and saying how my dad should have made me do it, and he was like 'we're gonna talk to dad about it when we get home!' so he talked to my dad. my dad's not sure if they're still taking ppl tho, they might have enough. but all you do is put stuff into the computer. easy enough. it's 8 hrs tho. 8-4. blaaah. buttttt my dad is pretty sure it pays $10 an hour! he was going to look into that today. it's not full time, so no benefits, but whatever. it would only be for possibly a few months like until november or whenever they're caught up. but $10 an hour for even a little while is awesome. i would have to wear nicer clothes tho blah haha the problem is i dont really have any!! ok, enough of that. la la la la. i want to go shopping. i want a cute jean skirt. but i have no money :( boo. i also want to get a freakin song onto my myspace profile and i dont know how to! i got a new background for my phone, its cuuute! its a robot waving haha its awesome. yea im done now. lata.

xoxo

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 17:27:02 GMT

THE USED and ATREYU. nov 2. im in heaven. <333

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 03:22:00 GMT

o yea i forgot. i changed my comments thing. PUNCHLINE! <3. loves it.

whateva i do wha i want to

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 03:19:14 GMT

today was pretty boring. but that's ok, bc im suuuper tired! last night was good times. jenn and i went to cinci mills for a bit. then ryan met us up there. we then went to micky d's. then proceeded to go to the underground. wellll, they have to be stupid. it's 16+ and they card you. you have to have your state id. well jenn doesn't have anything. but she did have her school id from last year which had a picture AND birth date and she also had her freakin social security card. you would figure that would be good enough, but nooooooo. if you dont have a state id you have to have your freakin birth certificate. so we went back to her house so she could get it. went back and got in. played some ping pong and pool. i made ryan wear my creepy glasses. it was great. but he kept breaking them!! seriously i dont know how many times he broke them last night. well ryan left us to go to a party :p so me and jenn stayed and got on the computers. the singer from calling the professional came over by us to pick up the email list and he started talking to us. he's sooo nice! and so adorable. i told him we went to see them. he was so happy. he was like 'you guys just made my night!' haha it was cute. we stayed for awhile then left. i found out ryan called me a couple times, but i never heard it ring. well the party was like he was only there for like '3 minutes' haha so he snuck out and we went and got him. then went to walmart. ran into teena and others. talked w/them for a bit. then jenn, ryan, and myself went to steak n shake. ah good times. his friend steve came up. he's a nice kid. we were there for awhile. then at about 3:30 we left bc jenn had to work today. ah i got a peach italian cream sode at the underground last night. omggggg it was so so good! i love those things. my mom got me the stuff to make some at home. i just made a caramel one. it was pretty good. i want to go to jungle jims and get some better syrups tho. so i've had a boc of hair color sitting in my room for like 2 weeks. it's black/blue. my hair needs to be re-colored like no other. i want to use that stuff, but im going to miss my black and pink so effing much :( buttt its starting to look kinda bad [fading] and i need to start looking for a job soon :/ so scared about that one. tomorrow = THE NOTEBOOK!! <3

xoxo

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 06:36:48 GMT

soo the show/night started out horrible. i hated the place and the ppl. they had the stupidest rules. $3 for re-entry?! i dont think so. the majority of the kids were like 12-15?? yea, something like that. they had old [well older] ppl working that tried to be so young and 'hip', and def. tried waaay too hard. it was creepy. but punchline finally went on! that was the best set of theirs i had ever seen! everyone was singing along. it was great. nightbeast went on stage 2 times! the second time he shot glitter/confetti everywhere. it was awesome. than after they were done we talked w/the guys for a bit and got pictures. steve was dacning to britney. haha it was so great. he was like 'aren't you my myspace buddy?' i was like yep! hehe then we got pictures w/nightbeast. that guy is so effin great!! then i believe we got chris. thennnnnnn we got paul :) god i love him. he's so effing beautiful! he told me i smelled good :) hehe and he said he remembered me from columbus. and we talked for a few. i couldnt really hear him tho lol so im just smiling and starring [bc he's so effing beautiful/cute] and nodding my head haha like i understood what he was talking about, just couldn't really hear it all lol but yes, he's so wowww :D then we got pj. he looked really upset/mad. it was sad :( so we headed out to my car. sat in there for a few waiting for steve to get done talking so jenn could tell him something. well she got him and told him what she needed to, and then STUPID me hands him the creepy glasses i got and asked if i could get a picture of him wearing them. so i did. and afterwards he was saying bye and was like 'you guys are different!' wowww i felt like such an ass after that! :p i didnt think it was that bad, but maybe it was haha o well. i wish they still had a show tomorrow, but o well it's for a reason. but tomorrow ryan, bev, and i are going to cinci mills then over to the underground! there needs to be cute boys there, but there usually is :) yes, so that was my night. it ended very well :) and the car ride home was fuuun. many laughs.

xoxo

kiss the ring mother fucker, it's my time, my time to shine

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 17:41:07 GMT

today would be punchline! :D ah i hope tonight is goooooooood! i need it. i hope i can take my mom's car. yea that would be nice. it's niice out today! nice days always make me happy :) and atreyu makes me happy :) i believe they will be coming here in nov w/the used. can't wait for that! im tired. grr. i like can't sleep anymore, it suckssssss. since there is now no punchline tomorrow i believe bev and i will be headed to the underground. i think im gonna see if ryan wants to go. ryan is fun. yea i guess that's it. im off to do some wash and start getting ready. lata bitches.

xoxo

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 18:25:02 GMT

PUNCHLINE = TOMORROW!! can't effing wait!! yesterday bev and i went to cinci mills. gosh i love that place. i found the coolest heels ever, they're NEON. i want the neon yellow ones, butttt of course they don't have my size. and they're only $20! grr. i bought the coolest/creepiest glasses ever! haha they're so great. mmm i want some starbucks!! i got some last night, and im pretty sure the girl rang it up wrong bc it was super cheap. that made me happy lol and it was so so good. i want to go buy tons of eyeshadow and experiment with it haha i wish i could do cute eyeshadow, but no, i suck :( my brother is going to be gone for the weekend woohoo. his bday is tomorrow, he's going to be 23! craaazy. so teena may be coming along with us to punchline tomorrow, just depends on her school work. i haven't hung out with her in awhile! so that will be cool if she goes. that's it yo. lata.

xoxo

this is a 44. caliber love letter straight from my ♥

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 18:54:02 GMT

blaaaah. so i recently found out that the punchline show on saturday is no longer. :( this effing sucks. i knew it was too good to be true. i never ever get to see bands 2 days in a row, let alone punchline!! argh. but i think some kid is trying to get them another show saturday. hopefully! and if it does happen i just hope it's still pretty close. but friday should still be good times. it's a homecoming show for nightbeast! :) hehe and it's a few days before his bday so he said they will be partying. so yea, should be good times :) i just wish i could see them saturday toooooooooooo. but even if there is def. no punchline saturday, i believe jenn and i will go hit up the underground in search of cute boys :D hehe im hungry, but im too lazy to get up and get something. i think im going to pub quiz tonight with me brother and jarret, and who knows who else will be there. i bought this super cute shirt yesterday that i had been wanting, it was on sale for $6! it's a hot pink halter with black cherries. loves it! i also got some love spell. mmm i haven't had that stuff forever. ima go eat and get a shower, so im out.

xoxo

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:07:26 GMT

im stupid. i accidentally hit the back button and lost everything i just typed. o well it wasn't anything too important anyways, but im not going to type it again so i'll just leave you with a picture.

look how effing beautiful these boys are. <3

xoxo

behind every great love is a great story

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 19:33:13 GMT

the notebook is an absolutely AMAZING movie!! so effing beautiful. i loved it. i want ryan. mmm yes. yesterday was fuuuuun. i got my hurr cut. bought some hair color. then bev and i went back to my house. well my brother sends me back out to go to biggs to get some stuff. so we do that, then come back and help cook. jarret was there. he gave me 2 passes to kings island!!! ahh do you know how happy that made me?! bc i had mentioned something to him about it last week bc he used to work there. well him and his dad won the 2 passes so he gave them to me. i cant wait to go!! so we all just hung out at my house for awhile. then bev and i went to see the notebook. haha when we were walking out there were these 2 older ladies in front of us. well the older one, i guess it was the other ladies mother, she turns around and im thinking she's going to say something about the movie. wellll she's like 'shouldn't you 2 be going to school tomorrow!' haha we were like 'no, we're out of school..' and she's like 'o, you looked like a couple of teenagers'. it was funny. so jenn got the job!! she starts today! :) so i have to go to open house w/o her tonight and find mr. glen greenwood. haha i need to get ready and do some stuff so i should be going. lataa.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 18:55:35 GMT

it's soo nice out today! i believe im getting my hair cut today. yay. i just hope it turns out ok :/ jarret is coming over and we're grilling out. yummm. and it's not just chicken like always. hamburgers and corn too. mMmMm! then tonight jenn and i are going to see the notebook. i wanna see it so bad. made a new icon since photoshop is working right again! it kinda sucks, but o well it will do for a bit. o yea, i watched dirty dancing last night for the first time in a loong time. omg i love that movie so much! i def. need to start watching that more often. sooooo i believe open house @ colerain is tom. i cant wait! haha we gotta find mr. glen greenwood. haha now im off to clean some. lata!

xoxo

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 18:10:09 GMT

so saturday was a waste. before the colerain/elder game it started storming and they made everyone leave the stadium. me and my brother didnt feel like waiting around for an hour or two so we just left. but colerain won! we killed elder, 21-3. that was awesome. so me and my brother went home and went to su casa with the rents. sunday i did absolutely nothing! really. probably slept more than anything. i reeally want/need to get my hair cut. maybe this weekend or something. hopefully? o yea, so i asked my dad about punchline staying at the house. he was like 'well it wouldn't be my first choice' haha but he was so cool about it. like not mean about it or anything. i guess that's it. lata.

xoxo

baby, the blood's already been spilled

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 20:11:41 GMT

mMmMm boys night out on demand, good stuff! o wow and now arthur!! haha im loving this. so much good stuff on here. im in a really good mood today :) not sure why, but whatev im not complaining! so jenn and i went up to school today so i could pick up tickets for the game. the lights were out! and like 3 cops were there. weeird. it was weird being back there. i got to drive my brothers car :D god i love that thing. alot of the traffic lights were out. it sucked. eww its hot today. tonight i believe jenn and i are going to the mall, meeting up with joe, then to see a movie. northgate is a cheapies now!! like REALLY cheap. $1 up until 6, then just a $1.50 after. thats fucking awesome. yesterday was good times. went out to eat with my dad, brother, and jenn. it was alright. but i ate waaaaay too much and felt so sick for awhile after that. then later jenn and i went to biggs & walgreens at like 12 something and bought tons of food and drinks. hahaha then we came back to my house and ate and watched dude where's my car. tomorrow im going to the colerain/elder game with my brother. ah we better win!! yea so i dont have much to write about. but punchline is getting closer!! :D cant fucking wait!! wow those are going to be 2 of the best days. they have to be! it's punchline. so yea im gonna talk to my dad and see if he would let punchline stay at our house if they needed to. hahaha and my brother might be out of town that weekend! so that means a little extra room. wow...if that happened, that would be amazing.

xoxo

are your breathing patterns on time?

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 00:26:12 GMT

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PUNCHLINE
2 DAYS IN A ROW NEXT MONTH. 10 & 11. it's gonna be OVER!

im the happiest fucking person right now :D

you lie through lips and eyes

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 17:26:49 GMT

so yesterday was warped. it was good times :) def. much better than last year! hmmm yea i dont really remember in what order things happened, but i'll just say what happened.

-watched matchbook romance. for like 1.5 songs haha
-went to go see army of freshmen.
-went to the aof tent to find out that they're not playing! :( so we talked to them for a bit. chris came over to us and it took him a few minutes before he remember us. i mentioned the void and he was like 'you guys are the ones from the void! you look so different, like REALLY different!' haha it was great. jenn bought thew new cd. we got high fives from kai and he poked my belly button.
-watched fall out boy. soo crowded :( but they were good. pete was looking so effing good. omg i want him!
-went to the letter kills signing.
-watched silverstein. [at some point] so so good.
-tried to get pete like alll freaking day! he was be difficult. FINALLY got him to get a pic :) he remembered me :) we were in the middle of getting a picture and he's like 'i remember you, you gave me the jack thing' i was like 'yep!' and he was like 'its in our van right now' then he told me my hair was cute :) god i love him.
-tried to watch yellowcard. that was craaazy. so effing crowded! but we stuck around for a few songs.
-started to watch flogging molly.
-went back to aof to get pictures. ha when i was getting my picture my purse was like on kai's butt and he was like 'thanks for touching my butt, im gonna touch yours' or something like that hahaha it was too funny.
-later i bought their cd and we hung out with chris for a bit. he had us re-do their little sign thing lol
-watched letter kills.
-bought a super cute vans purse. its so effing big though!
-tried to sell our warped after party bands. jenn got rid of hers, i didnt. :p blah

i know more happened, but i cant remember right now. o well, im sure jenn will have it in her journal haha

aof made me so so happy yesterday! i love those guys. they're such sweeties. they need to come back soooon!!

i just found 5 new unsung zeros songs!! i miss them so much. they're so amazing.

xoxo

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 14:15:25 GMT

blah its too early. im so so tired. i wanted to wake up earlier..but not this early. my neighbor called asking me to move the car. i was going to ignore it, but i couldnt sleep anyways so i attempted to move the car. but its my dad's car which is fucked up. so yea, that didnt really work out. and we talked for awhile. maybe she doesnt hate me after all. she actually said i wasn't a bad kid, its just my 'image' yeaaaaaa whatever. my mom is leaving work early today so she's bringing me home food! im excited haha skyline is sounding really good! there's not a whole lot to talk about. dont really do too much, pretty much just sleep and hang out. warped is monday :) im pretty excited about that, hopefully its good...better than last year! i get to see fall out boy :D which means i get to see petey!! and jenn is going to marry us haha and its going to be like one of her news casts. O YEA! haha yea, only jenn will get that bc we're LAME!! ha. la la la la. i want some cake batter ice cream or a brownie batter blizzard. mmmm. wow this entry effing sucks. im done.

xoxo

fljskfdhsfnlksdnf

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 18:33:26 GMT

ah i effing hate driving downtown. and i hate stupid people.

you know you do, you kill me well

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 12:47:03 GMT

i won warped tickets. very cool! while we were up there we got passes for without a paddle. so jenn, ryan, joe, greg, and myself all went. it was funny. after the movie we played some games and just talked a bit. ewwwwwwwww i found these HUUUGE gross spiders in the window at newport. eww it was terrible! so after that me, jenn, and ryan went to go get something to eat. we made him drive around down town haha i dont think he was too happy about that. but we got out of there! so we headed to steak n shake. that stupid jennifer bitch was our waitress, and of course she was being ncie bc there was a guy there. well she had this guy with her who was training. he didnt like her either, it was so great! after steak n shake we went to walmart and made ryan buy the ashlee cd haha so after that we got that we went back by the little people. then he went back to lick. i didn't want to! i wouldn't let him do anything tho. but when we were turning around the sign had writing on it. that was freaky!! bc it wasn't there last week when we were there. ryan hit a little bunny :( it was sad. but we went back and it got a bag and threw it into the grass, so that was nice of him :) then i believe we headed home. hahaha o yea, well on the way home i see my cousin, he was next to us on colerain. well im trying to talk to him but my window doesnt roll down, so stupid me starts to open the door haha so i just had to yell out the back window. well there were these girls behind him, the one driving was such a bitch!! she kept rolling her eyes and stuff haha it was funny. and she wanted over so i made ryan speed up so she couldnt. she got PISSED! haha it was funny. so when she got behind us i stuck my hand out the sun roof and flicked her off. haha then they passed us and her friend flicked us off. ah good times. im up so effing early today. jenn and i are going to go have lunch with my brother then go pick up our warped after party tickets. and tonight i believe we're going to see the village with joe. im excited, i really want to see it.

xoxo

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 19:29:52 GMT

soooo so much has gone on lately. but too much to write about, but it's all been so much fun! so yesterday jenn and i headed to joe's to hang out. we sat around at his house for a bit then went to go eat. then came back and sat around again haha then we went with him to pick his sister up. then we came back to his house again and watched tv with his mom. haha c'mon it was brian mcknight!! after that we headed to zach's. got to hear some of the WARRIOR stuff. o yea!!! we sat around at zach's for a bit. listening to joe getting yelled at by zach haha we finally decided to go to meijer. meijer is always good times. after meijer we went to zach's, watched a few minutes of thirteen haha then jenn, joe, and i went back to his house. watched boondock saints. wow, such a good movie!!! we left after that bc i was tired. so yesterday was good times. today jenn and i are going to the mall to try to win some warped tickets! ryan may come along, and im trying to get my brother to go too. i dont know if i'll have $ to buy a ticket so i need to win them!! o yea, we got to hang out with ryan the other day!! i missed him! now that he has his license back haha that kid is great.

xoxo

yeah dont mind me three feet from the ceiling

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 05:27:27 GMT

so tonight i went to su casa w/my mommy and daddy. mmm it was so good! o yea, last night we went to olive garden. ah it had been forever!! omfg it was so so good! i def. ate waaay too much, but it was so effing good. def. have to start going there more. but back to tonight. frankie told me him and his friend might be coming out to colerain. alright, and HOW many times have i heard this before?! yea. lol but he really did. him and his friend james came down to borders to find me. we talked to with my rents for a few. james was talking to them about the beatles and the doors. he thinks my dad is funny. haha so we headed out to good old colerain! went to skyline. after that they dropped me off. james was super cool, such a nice kid. he smelled very good, and likes so much good music. haha i had to drive up to walgreens tho to show them how to get out of my neighborhood haha i got the new underoath cd tonight. very exciting :D. tomorrow i believe im going out to everybodys and around there with my dad. and im making him take me to starbucks bc i really really want some! and i think we're going to the mall to see if forever 21 is open yet. im so excited we're getting one here! my brother is gone for the weekend. WOOHOO! he's been such a jerk to me lately. like he's seriously been extra mean to me lately. but i told him to bring me back some of that yummy canadian chocolate, so he better! so now im sitting here. bored. and tired. i hate it, whenever my brother is gone and i can stay on the computer however late i want, that's when i get tired early! grr to that. i <3 the format. they make me happy. well i guess thats it. later. <3

xoxo

p.s. - BEV! im so sorry he never called back. lets go beat his ass! haha <3

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 19:14:58 GMT

i can't wake up to these reminders of who i am:
a failure at everything... 18 going on extinct.
i know my place it's nowhere you should roam.

xoxo

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 02:17:16 GMT

it's def. been awhile since i've had an update. jenn and i have a new friend, joe. he's such a cool kid. soo much fun! that's all i've really been doing lately is hanging out with jenn, joe, & zach. good times. yea i don't know what to write now b/c im not getting into detail about all that b/c that's just way too much. i went to sonic for the first time a few days ago! that was exciting. hmm..sooo tomorrow is the hawthorne heights show in dayton. i want to go so so bad. but my brake light is acting up again, so i'm not sure if its such a good idea. that, plus that fact that there is like no info anywhere about this show! but like everyone is going, NIGHTBEAST is going to be there!! i really want to go, so we'll see. so im like addicted to micky d's nuggets now. ahh so so good. they're becoming like a daily thing for me. that can't be good. so i found out that pete goes around telling other girls they're cute besides me! hahaha jk jenn will get that. this post is kinda useless, i thought i had more to write. so i really want the format cd. we listened to it in joe's car the other night. good fucking stuff. i want it. im tired and i need to clean my room like no other. blaaah. im out yo.

xoxo

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 18:46:40 GMT

hmm..why is that i always seem to find the creeps?! seriously. eww last night was the ultimate creep. i don't even know his name. all i know is that he was lbc's tech guy. at first he was cool, but then he was just too much. im so so glad the m6t boys were there, babyseat and josh SAVED MY ASS!! if they weren't there i don't know what i would have done! yea, the creepy guy didn't like them too much b/c they kept taking me away from him, but im sure the feeling was mutual, so its all good :D haha jenn and i did get to go up on stage tho during rx bandits. it was cool, but waaay too hot up there and you couldn't really hear anything. despite the creepy guy it was still good times. i was just soo tired tho so i couldn't really enjoy it as much as i had wanted, but o well. i still had fun. it was nice to hang out with the boys again, always a good time. after the show jenn, zach, josh, and myself went to steak n shake. mMmMm. zach is a thief! haha today i believe jenn and i are going out to get zach, head to his new house, then go visit joe at work. then maybe a movie? but im broooke, so yea, we'll see about that. im soo tired. why?! i hate it. blah.

xoxo

o yea, jenn re-did the pink in my hair. its HOTTTTTTTTT haha i'll try to get pics soon. and jenn has HOTTTTTTT hair now toooooooooo!